Day 11: Getting really sick

I woke up with the bed spins… like I drank too much (just to clarify, I haven’t had a drop of alcohol since February). Since today was to be pretty short, I thought I could push through it, but a half hour into packing up, Galzn came to my room, and I promptly threw up the water I had drunk that morning. Interestingly enough, my dinner didn’t come up, so it was digested.

I lay back down. It got worse. At some point, I called a doctor in the US. He said that my symptoms resemble positional vertigo and gave me some head exercises to try to relieve it. I did the exercises at least three times. It got worse. No position seemed to provide any relief. The only drugs I took, on the recommendation of the doc, were Zofran and Valium. Next morning, at first light, I knew I was in trouble. I couldn’t functionally move. I was convulsing and dry heaving pretty regularly at this point. I felt like I was dying. I called for a helicopter.

I’m going to guess that the Heli arrived around 8 AM-ish. Galzn packed my stuff up and dressed me and put on my shoes. I was carried to the heliport about 200 feet away. I was dry heaving as the Heli landed about 6 feet from me. I flew down to Lukla with my eyes closed.

Since I’m writing this a week later, I’m going to go off on a tangent here: As a former NY State EMT, and current WFR, we’re regularly trained in the use of supplemental oxygen as a literal lifesaving drug to be administered to the injured. Now, since I was an EMT in college, I couldn’t resist cracking the O2 and taking a hit. I am human, after all. Well, if you’re wondering, taking a hit of oxygen when you’re healthy does nothing at all… you don’t even notice it… And if you think about it, this is perhaps a really, really, really good thing, as it means that when that ambulance arrives, those oxygen bottles will all be full.

Now flashback to January 2011. I’ve just broken my leg skiing out of bounds at the Jacksonhole Mountain Resort. It’s a bad break. I’m know that I’m in shock because my hands are bone white. A ski patroller arrives, one who had a locker right next to mine. He didn’t chat me up. He didn’t ask me what my chief complaint was. He just said “hi Tom, I’m going to put some oxygen on you”. I must have looked like I needed it. When he did, I could feel my level of consciousness rise… almost immediately. After all my first aid training… after all the talk about taking supplemental O2, I got to experience it myself, and it turns out, supplemental O2 works.

When I landed in Lukla, at 9000’ above sea level, 5500’ lower than Gokyo, I could feel my level of consciousness rise. It was the exact same sensation.

I still convulsed heavily on the tarmac when I got out of the helicopter in Kathmandu. And I made quite the entrance at the emergency room at the CIWEC hospital (basically a medical clinic for westerners in Kathmandu). They sent whatever involuntarily came up out of my stomach to the lab, and sent me to get an MRI. I spent the first night in ICU, and then moved to a regular hospital bed. I saw every doc on staff, plus maybe a few more. It was hard to keep track. They all wore masks. They all wore nametags, but not in an alphabet that I can read. Mostly, they all asked me the same questions.

My violent symptoms went away very quickly. I don’t think I dry heaved again after my entrance. The spins and nausea went away quickly. I can’t give you a timeline on that because it’s just too much of a blur, but maybe a couple of hours????? I know that when they took me for the MRI, they tried to seat me in a wheelchair and that didn’t work, so they put me back in a gurney.

An ENT (Ear Nose + Throat) surgeon came by and twisted and threw my head around… nothing. Whatever was triggering my vertigo up in Gokyo had gone away within 24 hours.

Two days later I was released from the hospital. I could have stayed longer, but I wasn’t really sick anymore. I’ve spent the last week at the Yak and Yeti Hotel.

So, how do I feel now? Do I feel healthy? The answer is no. I’m not a pot smoker, but what I feel at this moment – a week later – is comparable to having smoked some pot, and the high is coming down, and you just want to sleep it off. In this case, sleeping doesn’t make it go away. When I walk the streets I feel like I have mild tunnel vision, and I feel slow. And worst of all my appetite hasn’t come back yet. If I have to feel stoned, at least make the pizza taste good. It doesn’t.

Something happened to my brain up there. I don’t know what it is. My symptoms don’t fit any classic altitude illness. With each passing day, it is getting better, but my day to day progress has slowed. I have had some very experienced doctors discuss what I have. There is no consensus. The MRI shows a “micro-haemorrhage in the left centrum semiovale”, which could be a sign of HACE, but I don’t have any of the other classical signs or symptoms of HACE. If it is HACE, it’s a one in a million case. Am I that special?

Let me just say that the diagnosis isn’t over yet. I’ll send the MRI pictures around when I get home. As previously mentioned, I’ve had some of the most experienced high altitude doctors look at my case. Nobody really knows what’s going on.

Can I go back up? If I felt fine, then it’s a fair question. A lot of people come down with HAPE (which is a different altitude illness altogether) and spend a week or two in Kathmandu, and then successfully go back up when all the symptoms have gone away. When it affects the brain, people get more cautious. HACE is much rarer, and has historically been viewed as more serious. Some would say that if I actually had HACE, that I shouldn’t go back to that altitude ever again…. But as I write this I’m hearing doctors yell at the page: “you did not have HACE!!!!” More on that perhaps in a future post. For now, I’m getting ahead of myself. Back to the question at hand…

Can I go back up? If I felt fine…. Perhaps yes. Unfortunately, I don’t feel fine. Something happened inside my noggin. Today I finally accepted the fact that I can’t go back up… not this week. Not this month. I like my brain. I have to let it heal.

Jiban, the owner/operator of the trekking company I’ve been using, was there in the Emergency room when I arrived and I think I made quite the impression on him. He’s not a doctor, but he candidly told me a few days later that it’s time for me to think about things other than Everest. I don’t know if he would fly me back to the Khumbu even if I threw a wad of cash at him. What he saw spooked him. I was sick. I was really sick. Maybe it’s time to go home and count my blessings.

Obviously, there’s a lot more going on inside my thoughts than I’m revealing in this post. Forgive me but I’m not mentally ready to confront the disappointment of it all… not yet at least. So, from Kathmandu, I’m going to sign off for today. Thank you all for supporting me on this all too short of an adventure. Cheers.


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23 responses to “Day 11: Getting really sick”

  1. Amber Halloran Avatar
    Amber Halloran

    Glad you are recovering, Tom.

    1. mary ann caws Avatar

      hello dearest tom
      so really concerned maybe not more climbing soon !
      much much love
      mary ann

  2. Catherine Bredrup Avatar
    Catherine Bredrup

    Oh Tom. Sending a big hug and lots of love. I am so sorry. XO K

  3. Turner Bredrup Avatar
    Turner Bredrup

    Holy smokes Tom, I am glad you are okay. Regardless of what it is, I am glad you are coming home. As you have heard me say before, it’s hard to be smart, but it’s a good idea!

  4. Matthew Janger Avatar
    Matthew Janger

    Sometimes the odds are not in our favor. I’m glad to hear that you are on the mend. Lots of good years ahead! Take care of yourself, my friend.

  5. Akex Gambal Avatar
    Akex Gambal

    So glad you are recovering! Be safe. Alex

  6. Cousin Peter Avatar
    Cousin Peter

    Whoa cousin, that’s a heart stopper of a story. Thank goodness you were able to be flown out, and down. And thank you for returning alive. I can imagine the level of disappointment is excruciating, AND you have SO much to be grateful for. Do I need to say this? No. But there it is. Practice gratitude for the trip, the adventures you had, the vista’s you took in and be grateful you get to come home to Dede, the rest of us who love you, and some damn good pizza!!! Wow.

  7. Nancie Hughes Avatar
    Nancie Hughes

    Tom., I am so grateful to hear from you and to know that you’re recovering. We are so sorry this happened. We love you.

  8. Mark S Avatar
    Mark S

    Bummer on the trip Tom.
    Glad things appear(??) to be resolving. Hope that trend continues. Enjoy what you can while you’re there.

  9. Niki Avatar
    Niki

    ♥️

  10. Paul Serfaty Avatar
    Paul Serfaty

    Gee! Frightening stuff, Tom.
    Thank goodness you got down fast (well, once you decided to drop altitude), as on the trajectory you were on, who knows how bad it could have been…
    A major disappointment to have to bail, but then in mountaineering, the failure to bale when you must is the prelude to the biggest disasters.
    Congrats on a wise decision, and all the best to heal up fast.

  11. Randy Luskey Avatar
    Randy Luskey

    Hey Tom sorry you got sick. It’s so hard to avoid along the trail. It’s frustrating I’m sure not to know what actually happened. Either way it Wasn’t fitness or training, so out of your hands. I feel frustrated for you. I know you want to go back up and join back in, but it’s not advisable. Anyway I don’t know what, GDI

  12. Tamara Avatar
    Tamara

    Been tracking the news via D and sending love your way. TTYs. Oxo

  13. Emily Avatar
    Emily

    What a ride. I’m glad you got good care around you. Such a disappointment too. Best of luck on the ongoing transitions and travel.

  14. Chris Dougherty Avatar
    Chris Dougherty

    I am so sorry your adventure has been cut short, but I am so relieved you were able to get down and into a hospital so quickly. Sending you love and best wishes for answers, a speedy recovery, and new adventures to come.

  15. Hilary Caws Elwitt Avatar
    Hilary Caws Elwitt

    Just catching up now and I am so, so sorry it ended this way, but so happy you are OK! Rest, heal, and thank you for sharing your adventure and your amazing photos.

  16. Tim petrick Avatar
    Tim petrick

    I’ve been following your trek on this blog. What an amazing adventure! Beautiful photos. Thanks for letting us share your experience.

    There’s no shame in pulling the plug on this project. Unless you make a miraculous recovery, it’s probably time to turn around. That mountain isn’t going anywhere. Your many friends want you to be around.

    Full respect for your efforts. Feel better soon!

    Tim

  17. Gregory James Giedt Avatar
    Gregory James Giedt

    Hey Bud, give Dr Peter Hackett a call, you may know him. He ran the med clinic on Everest and Denali in the early days. HAPE/HACE expert!

  18. Don Worsham Avatar

    Time and love are learnings currency. You have time; you are loved.

  19. Jennie Bonney Avatar
    Jennie Bonney

    Glad you’re taking care of yourself.

  20. Carol Avatar
    Carol

    Tom,
    Glad you’re doing better. I wonder if you had vestibular dysfunction from a viral infection, as you were sick with a cold prior to getting really sick. Regardless, we’re all happy to hear that you’re improving!

    Having experienced BPPV (Benign Paroxysmal Positional Vertigo) more than once, and having had to retreat from summiting 2x on Denali (due to other factors), I can relate to what you may be feeling. Disappointment is hard after all the planning and effort.

    You made the right call with your symptoms. It’s harder to be smart than stubborn. And all your friends and family are happy you’re smart!

  21. Stan Hickory Avatar
    Stan Hickory

    I am just glad you decided to come down when you did! Many people, I think, might have tried to wait it out. Good call. So glad you are getting better!

  22. MaryBeth & Graham Avatar
    MaryBeth & Graham

    Tom: We are just catching up on your adventures and are really sorry to learn what you have been through. We are relieved you are safe and hoping you continue to feel better. We can’t imagine how disappointed you are. One day at a time…
    MB & G

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